If I Can't Learn to Hate You

by Sympathy Card

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That Dude one of the best midwest emo releases I heard. very expressive singing Sterling and so life lyrics, love it. good kuck to you, pals. Favorite track: Something I Heard at a Party.
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4010 Pop punk shot through with midwest emo, a popular and enduring blend for a reason! FFO: WATERMEDOWN, Hot Mulligan, Hightide Hotel Favorite track: Seasonal Effect.
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1.
Door Away 03:25
Boxing up albums and pictures of you The notes that you left me the years we've been through Watching my words 'cause I am speechless around you The house echoes heavy, I know you see through My flimsy facade, ‘cause I’m high and I’m blue I’ll say something stupid I’ll regret when I come to And I’ll never know Spare my feelings, is this all for show? A door away, and I could never have you A door away, still thinking of your perfume I cleaned the room, returned your things, and I’m still hoping its a mistake A door away, and I could never have you You take the office, I’ll take the room Keep all the memories I’m over them too Still too many things reminding me of you I’m hiding from pictures, I’m running from views I’m wasting my time here, what else can I do? I’m sick of wondering if what you say is true
2.
I’m trying my hardest not to look at the pictures you take I’m keeping my distance, I’m watching you stray I know I can’t handle this, so I look away ‘Cause I’m still wishing I could go back, and I’m wishing I asked you to stay I wish I could move on I wish I could make it better But, if I can’t learn to hate you, then I guess that I’ll love you forever Advice overheard at a party still feels so hard to take Advice overheard at this party still ringing in my brain Tell me to move on, but I’m struggling Tell me to get over it - I’m done Advice overheard at this party is keeping me numb I’m trying my hardest to break down the reasons you gave Misinformation elaborately leads me astray I’m wasting my time here - insert a dull cliche ‘Cause I’d give up everything to be with you one more day Advice overheard at a party still feels so hard to take Advice overheard at this party still ringing in my brain Tell me what I’ve done - how I fucked this up How many things would I have to change? Advice overheard at this party is a goddamn shame
3.
And I never wanted to tell you or call it like it is I can’t deliver the bad news - won’t you break it instead Just cut me loose, it’s breaking down, I’m falling through And I’ll just cut you loose, ‘cause that’s what you’ve wanted And I want to say, there’s a million things I’d take back if you let me Paint your face until it’s something I don’t know, I swear its helping A needed change - I’m just trying to move forward, it’s hard remembering all we were before And I want to say, there’s a million things I’d take back if you let me And I want to say - purge the feelings I hold onto, I’m so sorry
4.
It’s a seasonal effect of us, remember all the wasted trust I’m keeping my lips tight and locked together Without you freewill towards the ground It’s winter here, the clouds are gone, and I hate December And I’m just so tired of all the bad nights this month will bring Can’t wait ’til spring Just want to go back to summer - before this all came out Maybe live my life in ignorance, won’t turn my head around ‘Cause I don’t fucking need this weighing on my shoulders As if it wasn’t enough to leave you had to drag this whole thing out I can’t wait ’til I am high enough to read your letter again I can’t wait ’til I am high enough for you to understand
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829 03:00
I’m high again so that I don’t feel helpless Just give me something I’m breaking down the walls I built through all this There’s no protection Can you shut the fuck up? Give me just a second And can we clear my head, so I can make my exit? ‘Cause I can’t breathe This empty bedroom’s all that’s comfortable to me And, you’re so distant are you even trying? You’re so distant are you even trying? Just give me something Can you shut the fuck up? Give me just a second And can we clear my head, so I can make my exit? I’m running out of time, I’m keeping myself guessing Just give me something

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released August 28, 2020

Written, performed, recorded, and mixed by Sterling Johnson

Additional writing/guitar on "Something I Heard at a Party" by Liam Velez-Russel

Additional writing/production on "Seasonal Effect" by Liam Velez-Russel, Matthew Mele, and Alex Volpentest

Album art provided by Aidan Johnson

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Sympathy Card Tempe, Arizona

Sympathy Card is the Tempe, Arizona based project of Sterling Johnson, James Dittemore, Danny Ozer, and Adie North.

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